Unmaking and Making Self-portrait
homemade clay, water and acrylic, oil and oil paint, painted tarp, dolley, cups, rope, carts
This piece expresses a feminine experience portraying self- denial/indulgence, self-effacement/creation, monstrous/powerless, too much/too little. The painting on the top surface of the box is made from homemade clay and two different kinds of paint. The clay dams separate the oil based paint from the water based paint. I slide my legs underneath the surface of the box and pull my arms through the sleeves and then manipulate the painting of the legs while my actual legs are strapped directly underneath on the inside of the box. Because I’m strapped inside the box, I cannot move freely. I pull cords attached to shelving units towards me in order to complete my task. Precariously full cups of liquid paint rest upon the purposefully shoddily built shelving units.I struggle from inside the box to wrestle the shelving units up a too steep ramp. Accidents threaten to happen at every turn. Absurdity, hilarity, and anxiety compel the viewer towards a vulnerable character in an impossible situation.